I’ve experienced some pretty dark places. Nothing compares to this. This sadness pierces right through my soul like a kabar through a lamb’s heart.
Everything I worked so hard for, tossed to the wind. The person I was, fading. Meaning and purpose…linguistic pleasantries soon forgot.
My only reprieve is in the heart of darkness. The perfect blackness of the cave’s hollow caverns is the only place I feel anything like me.
A waterfall of dreams cascades down from the eyes of a warrior once destined to be king. Now a shell of desperate longing.
Isn’t it funny how fast everything changes? The life you knew yesterday, gone — replaced by the life you’ll know tomorrow. What sorrow.
If you told me it would be like this, I would have told you to take that red pill and shove it right up your ass. Alas, here we are and here I am.
Where do we go from here?
I don’t know. I don’t have answers. I break down and numb out and shut off. Then I sleep and when I wake I do it all over again.
My world is broken.